You don't fight for love, you're afraid of it.

        Some people don't realize how much power the words they say have over people. 

When you constantly tell a person how much you admire them and that nothing could get in the way of them fighting to be with you. I honestly have no idea what's the point in saying something you don't mean. Most people who say they will fight to be with you usually turn out to be cowards that no longer know how to fight for love instead they're afraid of it. Afraid of the idea of being in love and everything that has to do with it. They are scared of letting someone in, letting them down. People think if they don't fight for the person they won't have to overcome their fear. They won't have to try anymore because trying to be with someone and working out problems is just to difficult. If you're always afraid how are you ever going to experience the amazing feeling of being in love, yes there may be disadvantages to it but I truly feel that everyone should at least once be in love. Don't just be in love with a person. fight to be with them. I once got told all these things to make me believe that no matter what he'd be there fighting for us but at one point he just gave up. Total coward. What went wrong that I can't process? You can never trust anyone when they say they'll always fight for you. I know from experience that when someone says they'll be there fighting to be with you no matter what has happened, you got to make them prove that they will actually do it, that they truly love you that they'd go to extreme lengths to be with you. Don't be with someone who would give up after one argument because I've learnt the hard way, no relationships are easy. Then there are other people who feel as if once a conflict comes up in their lives they shut everyone out of their lives in order to not face their problems. Don't be that way. 

in my eyes vs. love in the eyes of others

             This may be too in depth, but it's real. In my eyes i see so much in you. I speak quite highly of you to all of my peers. My love for you is unconditional, I know you love me too. Why do i think nothing bad of you? Yet everyone around me thinks differently. There are things about our relationship that are too passionate to ever be described. I truly feel as if i could never have this bond with anyone other than you. Our love for each other in the eyes of others isn't much, they assume the worst because they've seen how you've treated me when i was too blinded by love to realize how it was affecting me. I was oblivious to everything that had been occurring. If there were a situation where we got into a disagreement I would always let you win so I wouldn't lose you. I could never down talk you to anyone, no matter what has happened.

You mean the world to me and somehow we always find a way back to each other,  im very indecisive on wether or not its a good or bad thing  after all the pain from the last time. I know i miss you but maybe its just the way you made me feel that i miss the most. In the eyes of others they dont understand our bond and how unique what we have is. In my eyes I've noticed how immense your potential is and that I will constantly believe in you. In the eyes of others they only see the bad side of things but to a bad side theres always a good. At one point in time i was a whole secret, I was devastated. I wasn't willing to be that anymore. Then there came a time where it all changed, no more secrets and everything in life was starting to pan out just the way we planned.

I could honestly say it was amazing. These people in our lives that think differently about the love we share may be right about some things but they will never understand our love and the lengths we would go to make sure one another is alright. Before you came into my life I was an innocent girl who had no idea how to let someone into her life and become so close to a person. I just realized a year and 3 months later after all innocence is gone what i had done. I wished i could go back but you can't rewind time. I then thought to myself no matter what we had gone through he'd always be there and I don't think i'd meet another man as amazing as this. You turned out to be everything I needed and more.

I wouldn't change anything that has happened because he once said 'I never regret anything because at one point it was exactly what I wanted'. You taught me how to be strong and that life is a short thing so live it well. Make mistakes and learn from them. I may have lost who i was and what I wanted to become, but this just gives me a reason to go searching for those answers that I've missed along the way. I never did care what the opinion of others were and i still don't care now. No matter what has occurred that is in the past and were going for a new beginning. So if you're reading this theres not a person or a thing in this world that could make me stop loving you. 

when i hide something, it stays hid. until i want it found.

           When someone has hidden something, you'll always find out one way or another because the truth always comes out. There are plenty of people out there who find ways to get hold of what we have hidden and our secrets. We may not tell the people we care about, about these things only because we don't want them to get hurt. We want to wait until the right time to let all hell break loose by spilling the truth. Long story short, hide everything in safe places until you want it found and want people knowing your secrets. You cannot trust anybody in this world now a days. Some people think its better to lie sometimes, than to deal with the truth first instead of finding out you've been lied to.